First Attempt to Conceive for 2017

I have been meeting Dr. Petterson of Fertility Fundamentals for 8 months now. Nothing has changed since then. I have been under Clomid for 3 cycles and moved to Letrozole last cycle. Since nothing has changed in my cervical mucus she upped my dose to 9 tablets on Day 2 and 3. (Speaking of which I am meant to take it now.) I am hoping that this time will be the time for us. I have endometriosis, PCOS, retroverted uterus, and a little below my ideal BMI. My doctor prescribed me to take Metformin and Low Dose Netrozole to help me with PCOS and endometriosis, respectively. 

I have made a lot of preparation for this cycle. I regularly did a light 30min yoga for almost a month. Took the following to hopefully help me have healthy eggs:

• Healthy Care Propolis since 2016
• Nature's Own Zinc, B6, Magnesium 2tabs/day and upped it to 4tabs/day this cycle
• Blackmores Fish Oil - 2caps/day
• Priceline's Methyl Folate for my MTHFR since 2016
• EPO since Day 1
• Kale soup everyday
• Goji berry tea 

Today is may Day 2 and I can see the changes in my blood flow. It was not like last cycle's. Last month my period was light and dark brown to black in colour. I know it was not healthy so I decided to move my body more because in TCM, black blood is a sign of blood stagnation. It worked! This cycle it is bright red with little clots. I didn't have bad cramping although I felt tolerable pain here and there due to my endometriosis. I guess it is good to mention that the week leading to my Day 1 I put hot pad in my lower abdomen and soak my feet in hot water whenever I have a chance to keep my body warm. From TCM again, cold tummy, feet and hands are signs of blood stagnation and cold uterus. Despite having 35C temperature at times in this very dry summer weather I still warm up my tummy.

Here we are on Day 2! Hopefully with all the preparations and fervent prayers all things will work out great!

Hello There!

How many blog attempts have I made? 2? 3? I don't know! I think this is already my fifth! Yup. That's right. My fifth. One word - L.A.Z.Y. Haha!

What brought me back to blogosphere? I just thought I need a place to express everything I am thinking and feeling. Not that my husband is not someone who's able to give me that. I am happy that he is good at listening, sometimes. 

Let me introduce myself first. I am married for more than nine years now and still without a child. We've been actively trying ever since we got married but nadah! Well that's life. No matter how much I want to control everything. I can't. No one can. We've moved to Australia from the Philippines last winter of 2014. Life here has been bitter sweet. We love our new home but we still miss our home country. So, we try to enjoy where we are as much as we can.

Hope you'll join me as I document my journey towards a more fulfilling life!

A Year of Hope

The husband and I moved here in Adelaide, South Australia (after much prodding and convincing) last July 28, 2014. We have faced challenges that tested our character, faith and our belief in ourselves.

It has been a year since I had my second miscarriage. This time it was physically, emotionally and spiritually painful. The time I found out I was pregnant at 11 weeks was the time I found out I miscarried. No big deal - said no one who have been wanting to have a child for more than 8 years! The doctor said it is about 25 - 30% of pregnancies miscarry and there is no way to prevent it.

It has been a year and yes, I still feel sad. There are days when I blame myself and wished I have done things differently. There are days when I think about how my baby would look like had he not gone sooner than we've come to known him. There are days when I doubt the grace of God to heal me from the pain.

It has been a year and yes, I go on. I go on and not move on. There is no moving on on losing a love one. There is no moving on in grief. I go on. I go on to enjoy the beauty of each day brings. I go on to love my husband who, not only gives me what I need, does everything to make me happy. I go on to be grateful with God for showing me that He is faithful through the kindness and charity of friends and strangers. I go on because I know with each pain comes great blessings.

Succu Love

I love growing plants. Period. No matter where I live I end up finding myself caring for a potted plant. When my husband and I were in Singapore and we bought plants to care such as mint, parsley, bonsai and another flowering plant (which I forgot). So, when we moved here in Australia, it was natural for us to have some live greens in the house. My current obsession - succulents.

The only succulent I've know is the Philippine Kalanchoe (or Katakataka) but, it was through Pinterest where I found some beautiful varieties of succulents and cactus. They are really gorgeous specially when they are crammed up together in one container or pot. I just love them!

Here's my second attempt at creating a potted garden. And... it doesn't look as I expected it to be. O well, I will try next time. I believe in practice makes perfect. In this pot it has echeveria black prince, gaptoveria pink, jelly bean, sedum voodoo and two unidentified beings. 

I don't know if it is just me or what. I find myself spending more and more time with my plants! I always check if their leaves are ok. There is always a question: are they growing as they should? Is the soil dry enough? Should I water them? Or, not? Should I replant? What are these on the leaves? Is it normal?

My husband even joked about it. "I envy the plant because you are with them more than me." Sorry, beb, will be with you in a minute, only if we are able to get that echeveria subsessilis this Saturday. But, we all know it is far from truth. Haha!

How about you? What's your current obsession? 

Hello There, 2016!

I know I have been away for more than two years and in those two years a lot of things happened. I may have to share them in several posts.

2015 brought the most painful experience I have felt in my existence but, it gave great joy that's enough for me to say that the past year was still a wonderful year. I can't be more than thankful. 

For this year, I don't have resolutions but only plans to continue to act on fulfilling our dreams. There are new adventures to take, places to travel and passions to explore. So, cheers to 2016!

Most Beautiful Woman (In Husband's Eyes, At Least)

I saw this video featured in ANC. It made me blush and smitten! Here's a guy who was in a daze after a surgery and was not able to recognize his wife. Watch what he said:

Isn't this the sweetest?! The last part was funny. He asked his wife to turn around. Haha! Looking for that booty?!

I remember one of the silly conversations, via sms, that hubby and I had. Here it is.

Gaah! Who wouldn't get a swollen head even for a minute with this? *kilig*

This Moved Me To Tears

Who wouldn't be move by this? The innocence of the young boy, the genuine love of the Pope and the happiness of the father for his son. Ohh... tissue.